Ecchan.
Are you done with your homework?
Yes, I've done it all.
I worked hard so I could confess my feelings.
I just want to die.
Mugi never showed up that night.
After that,
I only received this simple message from him the following day.
Hey, where are you? I'm going home.
Sorry.
Seriously? Is he trying to piss me off?
Did things actually go well for him?
That's so stupid.
You're obviously being tricked.
Are you stupid?
He wants to be tricked.
All men do.
Want to go on a trip?
I do.
Episode 9
I want to treasure the most What is most precious
But even something so simple Is the one thing I can't do
"If destiny is real
Then you are the person I'm destined to be with"
Those are the words I can't say
Because I'm scared It will destroy what we have
Even when you're near, you feel so far
This feeling that comes and goes
"Give up" "Don't give up"
The petals I pick are never ending
The treasure box remains locked
Embracing the sparkling feelings
Hiding the faintly colored fragments In my sighs
If our eyes meet, please don't look away
See through this lie I've locked away
I don't know how much more I can take
So please don't say anything yet
It hurts
I love you so much it's scary
Wow, it feels really nice up here.
Karuizawa.
Is this a heartbreak trip? A grieving trip?
And for two.
No, nothing even started with one of them.
Wow, summer resorts are great.
The wind feels so nice.
I guess it's because of the fog and terrain.
Ecchan.
Come on, what's the harm?
Nobody here knows us.
We're just here by ourselves.
Ecchan can be pretty forward in situations like these.
Don't look at me like that, that's so unfair.
To be honest,
it's better when I can keep my mind busy.
I just had my heart broken, didn't I?
Hanabi.
Thanks for coming.
Anyway, that's pretty amazing having a vacation home in Karuizawa.
Oh, it's not ours.
It's a relative's.
Don't expect much, it's old.
Wow, this is amazing!
I'm glad you like it.
There's nobody else here.
We get to be alone.
So, welcome!
Welcome.
Yikes, this is awkward.
Is the food good?
Yes, it tastes great.
Do you like it, Sanae?
Yeah, it's good
because you made it, Atsuya.
Ecchan's cousin looks like her from the side.
Hanabi, why don't you take a bath first?
What, are you sure? Shouldn't I help with the dishes?
It's fine, you're tired, aren't you?
Okay, then.
It feels so nice,
but I feel a little self-conscious.
The view is nice, though.
You're too close.
Am I?
The kitchen's pretty small here, isn't it?
Are you mad?
Of course I'm mad.
How mad?
Guess.
-You're still pretty when you're mad. -Just shut up and wash.
I didn't bring any clothes!
That's not my problem. If you don't want to get wet, back off!
I'll kill you!
Great, now I'm soaked.
That's not my problem!
Things are heating up.
I don't forgive you.
I'm never forgiving you.
How did you even know that we were coming here?
I called your house.
We were going to get to be alone.
It was my chance!
Hanabi got her heart broken, and even broke up with that guy!
Were you planning on making her yours on this trip?
That's right! And you've ruined it!
No.
You know that she will never fall in love with you.
You just wanted one last memory together.
Shut up!
You're the one being louder than me.
Is it really that wrong
to want things to end cleanly?
I wanted you to end things cleanly.
But I don't think you're strong enough.
Shut up!
You'd better not come in our room tonight!
Keep it down.
Why?
What's the problem?
What do others know about me?
Your body is hot, Hanabi.
Because I took a bath.
You smell nice.
I haven't shown anyone.
I didn't even want them to know.
Are we doing it tonight?
Yes, of course.
But we're not alone.
Yeah, he's in the next room.
So try to keep your voice down.
Even after touching her,
even after falling in love,
I've chosen to be alone.
What's so wrong
with choosing my own ending?
I can't go back to sleep.
Hanabi...
A notebook.
Is it Ecchan's?
It's a bullet train ticket to Karuizawa.
Did she...?
You're still shaking.
I know it's not much, but...
I'd become so fragile that a single touch could break me.
Even so,
my heart continued to breathe.
You're up early.
You too.
Do you want to take a walk?
I don't see lakes that often.
Me either.
Hey.
Who do you like?
Where'd that come from?
Just answer me.
Well...
I don't know right now.
Maybe I should've been clearer.
At least decide how you feel about Sanae.
I don't care about the rest.
Sanae isn't someone you should use as a replacement.
You have to decide during this trip.
That's right.
I should
already know that by now.
Wow, this is awesome!
I know how much you love clothes.
I bought so much!
We got everything we wanted.
I think I used up all the money I earned over the summer.
It's been a while since I've seen Ecchan look this happy.
The shade is nice.
Yeah.
Watch where you throw it.
Sorry, sorry.
I know.
Sanae isn't someone you should use as a replacement.
I already know that.
I'm feeling possessive now? This isn't love.
Guilt.
It's because I'm lonely. I used her.
A misunderstanding. I just feel it now.
Being with her won't change anything.
No.
This feeling...
Please, at least for now...
Nobody put a label on this feeling.
I promise this is the end.
We're back.
You distracted me.
Why are you playing something so old?
They only have retro games here.
Wait, are you sick?
Welcome back.
Are you okay?
I'm fine.
I'm going to take a nap.
I don't want to get you sick.
You have to decide during this trip.
I died again! I hate this game.
How many times was that?
You suck, Ecchan.
You're actually good.
I used to play a lot at Brother's house...
No, I'm okay now.
Really.
So I guess Mr. Kanai was the person you've been in love with.
Although he completely rejected me,
I actually feel refreshed.
Oh, crap. Now isn't the time to cry.
You did good, Hanabi.
You went for it.
It didn't matter what I did.
I never got a piece of you.
Ecchan, I...
There's something I should tell you.
Hanabi.
This time, I have to be the one with an answer.
Sorry for making you spend time with me until now. Thank you.
You're too nice.
No.
Sorry for everything.
No.
I know I've been selfish.
No, no!
It was fun.
-And I was happy, so you don't have to... -No!
No! I'm the one who took advantage of you!
I'm the selfish one!
It was all me! So--
It's fine, Hanabi.
I am going to let you go.
I already made my decision before the trip.
Even after you got rejected,
if you still didn't look at me that way,
I decided I would distance myself from you.
Why?
It's too hard.
I'll sleep in a different room.
Let's go home separately tomorrow.
Good night.
Ecchan.
Ecchan, I'm not nice at all.
Ecchan!
Listen, there's something I wanted to say too!
Ecchan!
Please stay friends with me!
Are you kidding me? Just stop!
Do you have any idea how cruel that is?
How can I just go back to being friends at this point?
You don't even know.
You don't even know
how much I loved you!
It was raining that day too.
My weakness that day...
My mistake...
It's caused you this much pain.
Then I won't give up this time.
Ecchan, you said you didn't need anyone to know what's really inside your heart.
But that's no different from being alone.
Even if we continue things as they are,
or even if we end them,
the door to your heart still remains shut!
I told you I'm okay with being alone!
Just leave me alone! Stop trying to come inside.
No, don't!
I do.
I want to know.
I want to know more about you.
I want you to tell me everything!
I'll wait until you're able to.
I'm sure who I really am deep down is worthless.
I know you'll just come to hate me.
How would I ever get over that?
I promise I will wait until you're ready.
I'm scared.
Even though I'm so scared,
why can't I just live with being alone?
There's something I've just realized.
You have the same frightened eyes that I do.
Okay.
I don't know when I'll be ready though.
I still love you so much.
But I'll try really hard.
I'll do my best to forget.
-I know I have to forget. -I know I have to forget.
-But I don't want to forget this taste. -But I don't want to forget this taste.
Did she leave already?
That's right, she got on the first train.
What?
I didn't get to talk to her at all.
That's enough, just let me take care of you.
Sanae, you did your best.
Shut up. Hurry up and get your fever down so we can leave.
You still have me.
-That's true. -What?
I guess you know what it's like.
Maybe I'll try trusting you.
Because I don't know what's going to happen in the future.
That's why I'll believe.
The feeling is modest like a charm.
Something that feels warm inside your heart.
It's been a while since I've been here.
The school, the classroom, the voices.
The reason for this uncomfortable feeling, this loneliness
isn't because it's a new semester.
I know that.
It can't be helped.
It still hurts.
It still stings.
It can't be helped.
Ms. Kamomebata is wolfing down that bread!
That's quite a sight.
Maybe she's hungry.
All right!
That was good!
What's with the gloomy face?
Oh, going home alone?
Yes.
Did you get rejected too?
What do you mean "too"?
You've been rejected the whole time!
What? Why are you so annoying?
Who's the annoying one?
What?
What is it you want to say?
That I've loved Mugi much longer and way more honestly.
So I feel refreshed.
It means the Danish you get at the school store yourself can still taste good.
You'll see once you do something for yourself.
I was just standing in this world, feeling that I was all alone.
I wonder why.
I never even thought about walking out on my own.
It's strange, isn't it?
I guess they call this a home visit.
I've always admired them.
Meeting the parents,
being served tea.
Stop.
Stop acting like a teacher.
I won't.
Because I really am a teacher.
But...
But...?
It's not a lie.
Come on, say it.
Call me "Teacher."
It's true.
I just honestly came here for an official home visit.
Teacher.
But then the parents weren't home.
I found myself all alone with this boy.
That's why
it couldn't be helped, now could it?
Let's escape from the solar system
And cross it in parallel lines
Stretching out in parallel lines
Like our shadows
You can blame the times we live in
For your lack of courage
Searching for a place
Where there is a wish not going anywhere
I want to be the words
That pour out of your lips
Let's escape from the solar system
And cross it in parallel lines
Taking along impossible wishes
And our timid voices
Once we're drained of emotion
I can start to imagine
I will reach out to our shadows
Ah parallel lines